Love is a Battlefield

I’ve always loved the song “Voice of Truth” by Casting Crowns.  I do constantly feel like there’s a giant telling me I’ll never make it but I also have the voice of truth.  I have God’s words and His promises and while I cried myself to sleep last night asking why God would send so much heartache to us in these last six months when all we’re trying to do is His will I just couldn’t wrap my mind around it.

Today I had to take Laila for an appointment in Indy so I had several hours to myself in the car.  I sat and thought of all the lies I have whispered in my ear when I am in despair and then I tried to counteract them with the truth.  Maybe some of you are thinking these things too wondering what in the world we’re thinking so here’s my list.

False:  We’re going down the wrong path

Truth:  We specifically prayed for God to close specific doors and when He didn’t we moved forward.  He know the plans He has for us.  Plans to prosper us and give us hope and strength.

False:  Maybe He’s closing the door now.

Truth:  No, He is not a God that sits ready to laugh and watch us suffer.  Sometimes he shields my eyes from some of the details knowing that in my humanness I would turn away scared if He revealed it all to me.  India closed for two months three days after we were approved to become matched.  We specifically prayed for God to show us before that commitment.  Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and you plans will succeed

False:  We already have our hands full and we have nothing left to give.

Truth:  God does not call the equipped, He equips the called.  I can do all things through He who gives me strength

False:  Our agency is not reliable.

Truth: Governments and programs are not reliable.  Nothing in this world is.  In this world you may have trouble.  But take heart Jesus overcame the world!

False:  RJ has no chance to catch up because it’s possible he’ll be almost nine when he gets here.

Truth:  God’s plan is that every child have a home and a family and He will help us to help Ranjit become everything her has planned for him.  We (and He) will not leave him as an orphans.  We will be God’s hands and feet to come to him.

False:  I jinxed myself by feeling overwhelmed with having to get everything done soon before I leave on Monday for 4 weeks

Truth:  There’s no such thing as jinx.  God doesn’t play by anyone else’s rules.  The plans of the Lord stand firm forever.

False:  The added expense is going to put us over what we can afford.

Truth:  We can’t afford any of it anyway!!  HA!  The LORD will provide!

I could go on and on.  My mind is truly a battlefield.  I do believe spiritual warfare is alive and a constant battle.  I will choose to have my sword, helmet, belt, shoes and breastplate in place to fight.  Please please continue to pray for this miracle that the director of the program is fighting for that we can get our name registered with CARA in India sooner!