No Words

I keep thinking that I should write some big inspiring blog.  This is the most uncertain time of our generation and I just truly have no words.

• Some people have left, some stay.
• Some people are isolating, some are not.
• Some news is real, some is not.

There are just no adequate words to describe the time we are living in right now.  For me here are a few mixed emotions that I continue to have.

• Fear but it is always almost immediately battled by truth in my mind as all things swirl together and I still haven’t quite been able to separate the two.  But, I’m so grateful they both exist.
• The urge to run but that is almost always battled with more truth. Like the fact of “where is there to go?”
• Peace and trust.  True peace that passes understanding and true trust in our leadership and their prayerful consideration of our safety.  These have been the biggest blessings.

So what is there to do?  Well, for me, I had to come up with some short terms goals to work toward.

• I’m working on a Celebrate Recovery step study to process my emotions (both about this situation and the events of the past few years).
• We are getting ready to move.  The reality is that our island is closed to outsiders right now but rather than focusing on “what if,” we’re preparing our field for harvest and when the Lord says He’s ready, we’ll be ready.
• I’m praying and keeping my eyes open for opportunities to bless others during this difficult time.  The Lord has given me some cool stories and opportunities and for that we are grateful.
• I stopped reading news articles and looking at the statistics every day.  I feel helpless and that adds to it.  It only adds to my anxiety.
• I’m going to stop opening the emails from the embassy that are urging all American citizens to return to the United States.  We have leaders also reading those who will know when/if that time comes.  These emails only make me question myself and our leaders when, as you read above, God has gifted me with peace and trust when I keep my eyes focused on Him.

OK, so I apparently had a few words ;)  Maybe I’ll change the title…. but maybe I won’t.  That title continues to give each of us the reminder that even when we don’t have words, even when we don’t know how to figure out our feelings, even when so much seems so very uncertain… God has the words.  His Holy Spirit lives in us and promises to intercede for us.  Please take comfort in that today.  And PLEASE take care of yourself and be responsible.

Thanks for letting me share.