T-Minus ONE day!

I missed a few days because Emma and I went camping for the weekend with her Girl Scout troop.  Not sure that was the greatest decision right before we leave but I didn’t want to make her cancel.  Not sure what it was but for some reason on the way home this morning I started crying and I just could not pull myself together for most of the day.  I think it was mostly about leaving Laila for so long and sad she won’t be able to experience India with us.  We’d take her if we could but with her poor immune system and the complexity of a wheelchair it’s just not possible.  I think the worst part today was during greeting time at church.  Worship music always gets to me anyway, but today of course was magnified thinking that the next time we’re worshipping in the states (corporately) Ranjit will be home.  Plus all the kids sang a song in front of church and Laila and her friend Zoe got to participate and it was the cutest thing ever!  I’m standing there hoping they don’t do greeting but of course they do and so the people in front of us turn around and see my hot mess self and just awkwardly say hello and shake my hand while I’m red eyed and lip quivering.  UGH!  Then a kind woman I know comes to give me a hug and before she sees I’m a mess she asks when we leave and I blurt our Tuuuuueeeesssdddaaayyy in a blubbering crazy voice.  She just hugged me and went back to her seat.  I apologized after church.  Oh how I hate crying in front of people but I just could not hold it in today.  A few friends said it must be my nine month paper pregnancy hormones ;)  Then tonight we had an amazing time of prayer with friends and family at our church and about half way through I just felt peace.  I can’t say the peace had really gone away during this day of crying and honestly on my walk this morning before we left the campground I really spent some time praising God that I don’t really feel overwhelmed or short on time or scared.   I also know Laila will be just fine.  I’m really having a hard time describing how I feel.  It really is peace that passes understanding mixed with excitement mixed with crazy tears mixed with love.  See, hard to explain.  I just really felt a calm in my spirit during that prayer time and I haven’t cried since I’ve been home so that’s good :)

Friday we had our pre-travel call with the agency and that went really well.  We were thinking maybe 30 min but it was 90 min!  Good thing Jack has an understanding boss because I went down there for them to call on Jack’s lunch hour and we went  over of course.  The only surprise is that we need to have what they’re calling a “demand draft” to pay the court fee.  We live in a small town and none of the banks do it so I’m going to have to drive somewhere tomorrow to see if I can get one in a bigger town.  Would’ve been good to know earlier but I guess I’ll figure it out tomorrow…. I hope!

Today we…..

• made sure we had all our paperwork and organized it into an embassy pile and a med center pile
• talked through our trip to figure out how much cash we should bring
• made our parking reservation at the airport
• had amazing prayer time with our friends and family
• exchanged the cutie undies I had bought for Ranjit for smaller, cuter ones :)
• got fun stuff from both grandmas including snacks, activities for the plane, clothes, PJ’s and two Karen Kingsbury books for me!!
• created a groupme group to be able to text several people from India by just sending it to one number to only pay for one text
• researched demand drafts and tried to figure out where to get one tomorrow
• thought about staying up to clean this pig sty……nah, I’m tired!  Maybe tomorrow ;)

Two more sleeps in my own bed………